"Will life be as it is now, more or less, in 100 years? Or will we be living in a nuclear winter, struggling with unending climate migration and a primitive resource war? Who knows — all we know is that Mars will be in Gemini. And yes, it’s probably the right time to call your crush." - I laughed so hard. Thanks for addressing all my obsessions--God, manifestation, new age claptrap, control, surrender, magical thinking (doom) vs. magical thinking (hope)--with lyricism, humor, and insight.
Famously, I’m a Cancer sun, Aquarius moon, and Aries rising. People who don’t know me well recognize the Aquarius and Aries energy. My partner (an Aquarius sun, Virgo moon, Leo rising), however, understands that my Aquarius moon is the only thing keeping my Cancer sun in check to arguable success (losing right now). I resonate with astrology to a somewhat high degree. I don’t keep up with the forecasts and habits and movements of the “heavenly bodies.” I didn’t blame my meltdown in a CVS parking lot last night to being in Mercury retrograde (which we are in for much of the year, every year). I’ve always wanted people to see me. The dynamic between my signs in my big three and six reflect my contradictions, my conflicts, my facades, my love. It’s superficial and wildly subjective and inaccurate, but I’m friends with a woman who used to be my barista just because she has her Aquarius moon tattooed on her arm.
When I’m in pain, like now, I feel in the past and fear in the future. When I’m not, I’m more in the ether than in company with any of Christmas Carol ghosts.
I’ve always seen time as set. I’ve always believed everything will be okay or it will not. My belief in god is marginal, but I still pray. The future feels here and past. I’m the only thing I’m truly familiar with that will be in my future, so I focus on her.
As I said, I still pray. Some would call this manifestation, as I’m imploring and trusting an invisible force, but I’ve never believed in manifestation. Truly, I think it is the simplest human principle manipulated and wrapped in false control and privilege. Human will has power. It is not aligning with your higher self and “speaking it success into existence.” You got that job because you have a bachelors. You got that house because you worked hard and the buyers had no better offer. You have more friends because you’ve developed on your self-confidence. You met your husband because love is everywhere and you are a serial dater—it’s just odds. What I disliked about religion was the control. Surrendering control to god was still using the language of control. A lot of new age spirituality is the disorganized whims of the disenchanted former religious grasping for control. Not my vibe, but astrology is ha (!)
I think of astrology less in terms of telling you what will happen, and more guiding your attention, and thus actually deciding what, to you, actually does happen.
This came form your notion of data as a form of attention. :)
Piscean with Sagittarius moon and Aquarius rising... never read my daily horoscope, but enjoy what I've learned about myself and friends with astrology, perhaps a bit self indulgent but always fun! I've started to think of and hold manifestation versus responding to what life brings as a kind of breath in and out - sometimes the burst of laughter inbetween... both have their moment; often in relation to the energies of my menstrual cycle... which, incidentally, I've just realised has become my calendar. I like to live in the present, but my future is impending change of life and elderhood... my time in this body has become my calendar, and the bodies of my parents and younger generation. Thanks for inviting me to see this suddenly.. and for such a gorgeous piece xx
"Will life be as it is now, more or less, in 100 years? Or will we be living in a nuclear winter, struggling with unending climate migration and a primitive resource war? Who knows — all we know is that Mars will be in Gemini. And yes, it’s probably the right time to call your crush." - I laughed so hard. Thanks for addressing all my obsessions--God, manifestation, new age claptrap, control, surrender, magical thinking (doom) vs. magical thinking (hope)--with lyricism, humor, and insight.
Famously, I’m a Cancer sun, Aquarius moon, and Aries rising. People who don’t know me well recognize the Aquarius and Aries energy. My partner (an Aquarius sun, Virgo moon, Leo rising), however, understands that my Aquarius moon is the only thing keeping my Cancer sun in check to arguable success (losing right now). I resonate with astrology to a somewhat high degree. I don’t keep up with the forecasts and habits and movements of the “heavenly bodies.” I didn’t blame my meltdown in a CVS parking lot last night to being in Mercury retrograde (which we are in for much of the year, every year). I’ve always wanted people to see me. The dynamic between my signs in my big three and six reflect my contradictions, my conflicts, my facades, my love. It’s superficial and wildly subjective and inaccurate, but I’m friends with a woman who used to be my barista just because she has her Aquarius moon tattooed on her arm.
When I’m in pain, like now, I feel in the past and fear in the future. When I’m not, I’m more in the ether than in company with any of Christmas Carol ghosts.
I’ve always seen time as set. I’ve always believed everything will be okay or it will not. My belief in god is marginal, but I still pray. The future feels here and past. I’m the only thing I’m truly familiar with that will be in my future, so I focus on her.
As I said, I still pray. Some would call this manifestation, as I’m imploring and trusting an invisible force, but I’ve never believed in manifestation. Truly, I think it is the simplest human principle manipulated and wrapped in false control and privilege. Human will has power. It is not aligning with your higher self and “speaking it success into existence.” You got that job because you have a bachelors. You got that house because you worked hard and the buyers had no better offer. You have more friends because you’ve developed on your self-confidence. You met your husband because love is everywhere and you are a serial dater—it’s just odds. What I disliked about religion was the control. Surrendering control to god was still using the language of control. A lot of new age spirituality is the disorganized whims of the disenchanted former religious grasping for control. Not my vibe, but astrology is ha (!)
I think of astrology less in terms of telling you what will happen, and more guiding your attention, and thus actually deciding what, to you, actually does happen.
This came form your notion of data as a form of attention. :)
Piscean with Sagittarius moon and Aquarius rising... never read my daily horoscope, but enjoy what I've learned about myself and friends with astrology, perhaps a bit self indulgent but always fun! I've started to think of and hold manifestation versus responding to what life brings as a kind of breath in and out - sometimes the burst of laughter inbetween... both have their moment; often in relation to the energies of my menstrual cycle... which, incidentally, I've just realised has become my calendar. I like to live in the present, but my future is impending change of life and elderhood... my time in this body has become my calendar, and the bodies of my parents and younger generation. Thanks for inviting me to see this suddenly.. and for such a gorgeous piece xx
Michelle, ahhh so grateful for you and for this playful piece! As you know, I'm always here and ever keen for more scrumptious morsels on God.